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Ok I know this sounds basic, the standard answer is 'when it gets too much'
But how do we actually know when is too much?
I have always been a pain chicken
No tattoos, ears peirced once
But mentally I am very stubborn
So of course I am aware some of this stuff is supposed to hurt, and more than possibly hurt a lot so being in pain is not a reason to stop things
But I also rationalise that humans have been able to bear limbs being blown off and stuff so what I'm feeling is tame
So I'm at a point where I'm writhing around wimpering and wailing, unable to think of anything other than making it go away, trying to bite myself to move pain somewhere else, trying not to puke
I ask to stop ( not safeword)
And I'm told 30 min
So I choke it down, and manage my 30 min
Get a nice sense of acheivment and a 30s high
Then a little act causes me to crash into a crushing low which I know will make me less mentally strong to deal like this again
Is this normal? Bad luck, or am I supposed to stop sooner?
But how do we actually know when is too much?
I have always been a pain chicken
No tattoos, ears peirced once
But mentally I am very stubborn
So of course I am aware some of this stuff is supposed to hurt, and more than possibly hurt a lot so being in pain is not a reason to stop things
But I also rationalise that humans have been able to bear limbs being blown off and stuff so what I'm feeling is tame
So I'm at a point where I'm writhing around wimpering and wailing, unable to think of anything other than making it go away, trying to bite myself to move pain somewhere else, trying not to puke
I ask to stop ( not safeword)
And I'm told 30 min
So I choke it down, and manage my 30 min
Get a nice sense of acheivment and a 30s high
Then a little act causes me to crash into a crushing low which I know will make me less mentally strong to deal like this again
Is this normal? Bad luck, or am I supposed to stop sooner?
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