Some perspective on my slave

[Smallest]

You knew he needed to go, don't be sad over it. At least you know he's doing better, and you've done what you can, which seems to be quite a bit.

 

[sebastian]

Many thanks. I told him that I hoped that I had been worthy of his devotion, and he told me I had been. which made me cry.

As it happens, the Return of the King is playing on tv tonight, and it turns out to have exactly the right balance of despair, sadness, honor, and triumph for my mood. It keeps choking me up (which it did the first time I saw it), and seems to be the right tonic for my situation. And I've always thought that Sam was one of the best examples of a boy in literature.

 

[sillylittlepet]

I'm sorry to hear about your sub sebastian, but it doesn't seem like he was really making the right click for you.

Hopefully you learned a lot from this and will be an even more incredible dom for the next boy you meet!!

 

[sebastian]

I did learn a lot, and so did he, which makes me feel good.

Losing a slave is sort of like losing an arm and a friend at the same time.

 

[sebastian]

Well, there's a new twist in the story of my slave. He and I had a long talk yesterday. He explained that what he was really unhappy about was that since I had established that I didn't feel deeply enough about him to keep him permanently, he was worried that he might miss opportunities to be with guys who might have the potential to keep him permanently. So his real issue what he wanted to be able to play with other guys if he met someone he thought he might click with. But he wanted to keep serving me, because he was really missing that.

So we decided that I am going to keep him as a boy, not a slave. He will have the right to play with other guys but will otherwise obey me. That seems like a decent arrangement for me, because it lets me continue to train him and receive service but lets him explore with other guys. And I think that it will make it easier on him when the time comes to end it, because he won't feel quite so dependent on me.

 

[Smallest]

That sounds like what you both need. I'm glad for you that it's working out, Sebastian