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Hi all,
I am a female Dom and I visit this site regularly under my username, however for my anxiety I am posting this anonymously.
My boyfriend is my sub, and has been on and off throughout our 5 year relationship. I was new to BDSM when we got together although kink had always played it's part for me. Our relationship, both romantically and BDSM has always been rocky, largely due to his tendency to cheat on me. There is a long and complicated explanation behind that but he has been faithful for a year now and we are on our way to being happier than ever, and the BDSM is getting back on track too thanks to some very strict training sessions.
So here is my anxiety. He is committed to me now. And recently there has been a lot of talk of marriage. and I am terrified that he will propose! I love him, I love BDSM, I'd love to marry him. But it all confuses me. He wants a 24/7 BDSM lifestlye, which we have never really grown to as his infidelity has gotten in the way. I think I would enjoy it, and as the Dom, this doesn't scare. But there is still a part of me that is romantic. I love to fall asleep in his arms, be cuddled tightly, feel safe and warm with him. I think this need for a strong male figure has gotten in the way of us having a full time BDSM relationship because, for example, I don't want to sleep alone every night while he sleeps in his cage.
I guess what I am asking is, is it possible to have a more full time BDSM relationship, where the male sub still fulfils the more traditional strong man role. Right now, my anxiety feels like I can only have one, and I don't think I can fully live in either scenario and be fulfilled.
I am sure this question is a product of my inexperience, so I want to learn more.
does anyone have any experience of this? and anywhere I can read a little more about types of BDSM relationships, long term, or romantically.
Thanks
H
I am a female Dom and I visit this site regularly under my username, however for my anxiety I am posting this anonymously.
My boyfriend is my sub, and has been on and off throughout our 5 year relationship. I was new to BDSM when we got together although kink had always played it's part for me. Our relationship, both romantically and BDSM has always been rocky, largely due to his tendency to cheat on me. There is a long and complicated explanation behind that but he has been faithful for a year now and we are on our way to being happier than ever, and the BDSM is getting back on track too thanks to some very strict training sessions.
So here is my anxiety. He is committed to me now. And recently there has been a lot of talk of marriage. and I am terrified that he will propose! I love him, I love BDSM, I'd love to marry him. But it all confuses me. He wants a 24/7 BDSM lifestlye, which we have never really grown to as his infidelity has gotten in the way. I think I would enjoy it, and as the Dom, this doesn't scare. But there is still a part of me that is romantic. I love to fall asleep in his arms, be cuddled tightly, feel safe and warm with him. I think this need for a strong male figure has gotten in the way of us having a full time BDSM relationship because, for example, I don't want to sleep alone every night while he sleeps in his cage.
I guess what I am asking is, is it possible to have a more full time BDSM relationship, where the male sub still fulfils the more traditional strong man role. Right now, my anxiety feels like I can only have one, and I don't think I can fully live in either scenario and be fulfilled.
I am sure this question is a product of my inexperience, so I want to learn more.
does anyone have any experience of this? and anywhere I can read a little more about types of BDSM relationships, long term, or romantically.
Thanks
H
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